Carolina (starsparkle333) wrote,
Carolina
starsparkle333

odds and ends

I have actually managed to do a bit of data analysis this week. Of course now I have no idea what to do with the numbers, but I will take what I can get. I'm still stuck with this block on writing my proposal. I have a general outline and a list of references.. but every time I open the word document, I can feel the urge to throw my laptop and run away to Alaska rising. This, more than anything, is what convinces me that I need to get out of academia and find something else to do with my life. So yup, yay school. (On an semi-related note, they still haven't given us our TA assignments and it's frustrating because I just want to KNOW. I HAVE A LIFE TO PLAN, SCHOOL.)

On a more personal note, I have had some wicked insomnia for the past 2 weeks and it's driving me a little bit insane. I haven't been able to fall asleep before 3am and often it's closer to 4am when I am staring at my ceiling and wishing for death. I think that part of the problem is that I have to sleep with a fan on me because summer and it's really difficult for me to find sleep when there is moving air on me. I like to curl up under blankets and be warm, but not too warm... and having air messes it all up. I have tried going to bed at midnight/1am. I have tried finally crawling into bed at 2:30. I tried drinking herbal tea (no caffeine) the other night and all that happened was that I didn't fall asleep till 3:30 and then was wide awake at 7:30am. And waking up that early didn't even help because it still took me till 4am to sleep the next night. The main problem is that when I can't fall asleep till that late, I end up sleeping through all my alarms and then wake up at noon feeling gross. Ugh, so frustrated.

I am off to NYC this weekend to hang out with people, so maybe that will help. The bus is at 9am, which means I need to leave the house between 7-7:30 and I am honestly considering just not sleeping at all and then sleeping 4 hours on the bus. Uggghhh.

In other news, I finished reading The Fault in Our Stars last night and cried for about half an hour.
Tags: adventures in grad school, i am not an adult
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